Saw my nutritionist yesterday and cried in her office because focusing on food and eating more is overwhelming me and just making me obsessed with food. Woke up this morning to August getting in bed with me. I panicked and cried because I feel like I’m gaining weight, I’m too fat, and my face is breaking out. I just feel really ugly and its really embarrassing. I’m so stressed and its so stupid because I should be able to manage all of this but I’m just not.
So I came home today after seeing my therapist and went right back to doing homework. My dad was all worried because my counsler called him earlier to tell him I had a melt down in her office and that I was really over whelmed and stressed with everything. He was really nice and supportive about everything, he’s such a great father. And then my parents went to bed. I failed a math quiz. Ate strawberry ice cream and August’s birthday cake.
Then puked. All of it.
